it's so long since i last post...

this few days was busy studying...

quarreling with my dear for this few days...

ii'm sorry wor.!! i dun wan quarrel derh

but then i dun wan you leave me go usa wor..

hubby sorry!! i love you!

it's the second day since ah ma leave me alone...
she's having fun in china(:
but we are suffering in singapore... with that hot weather plus those mad auntie...
most important is WE CAN'T EAT AH MA COOK THE FOOD!
never mind(:
just eaten my lunch and startedd miss-ing ah ma porridge plus ah ma soups...
just dont't wanna eat mum's food.. because it's really taste sucks...
XDD having youth day todayy and woke up later....
so hot!! i miss ah ma!! love hubby loadds.

yesterday was a tiring day so is today...
just wondering if if if nothing happeneed yesterday...
if if if but but but...
all this words appear on my mind once i woke up today...
life seems really "good" but i don't know why so much but's and if's appear...
if this world seems friendly...
i don't get the answer yet.. if there is somewhere eui let me choose to stay at...
maybe i might choose holland living with my alone love... can be able to look at beautiful flowers...
reallis romantic... houses such beautiful...
(: i am tiredd... i dun wan anything happeend wor...
if eui can live happily... even i am dead... i will also protect euis no matter what...
if eui cherish it ... ii can save euii with my life... i rather gives up my life for eui...
just only if eui.. i dun wish and wans to quarrel anymore... i know i am not a good dear...
but becos' of eui i will be a good dear.... just remember what eui promise...
that promise makes sure that my love for eui nv fades... but it will be alwys increasing...
if only that promise eui make kept it downn... dun forget me... but love me alwys.. stay alwys happiiee my dear... if eui read this... it's finee...
i dun wan what happeend ytd to happeend again..
me here studying hard becos of eui eui there trying to provoke me...
dun wish to happened that thing againn...
"gossips" heard that huiling kiss meisin in school today...
confirm lesbian i thiiink meisin too (:

ytd was really darn tired... today dint have school.

ytd went amk hub wif yulin.. shopping for stuff... 

bought a pen and borrow some books hahaa....

went to bed early yesterday around 10+ wanna 10.30

today woke up around 8+ 9+...

play wif dear sms him till fall aslp infront of my computer ahh!

slp for 4 hours or so... den tutionn...

now alos sleeeppy!! zzz..

today was a happy day... have my oral exam not bad... it's all about swimming i think that i answered the question to the teacher not bad... i hope so too... gort my f&n taste??

ms sim say the taste overall not bad uhh!! that was a good news... mrs lim come and scold us??

think ms martin complain to her about us not caring about her during lesson time... 

when to see doctor after school today.. doctor say my hand sensitive to some things??

while my belly button got infection.. that freaking ahh!!

feeling so sleepy now becos of the medicine!! crapps.... i wan slp...!

chiongg ahh!!

have such a "caring" parents...
when their daughter and son is sick they don't care about them...
making their husband sister taking care of the 2 sicklys...
daughter having rashes...
son having fever...
yet parents outside playing happily... shopping, visiting people..
such a failure yet they don't know... forcing her daughter gging jogging early morning making her rashes even worst... since yesterday her so called rashes appear now... it's makes worst and turning that her belly button also red and with abit sand sand thing appearing beside it..
she had her bath 3x today yet feeling itchy but her mother dint care about it and when ahead sleeping... putting prickly heat powder having the dropping sounds also scold... what kind of parents are they??
son having fever... aunt (gugu) take mediicine for son to eat although he isnt her real son... caring than parents aunt accompany the 2 sicklys helping daughter applied medicine and etc...
mother come back play sudoko... didn't even care about daughter's hand son's fever... that what they count as a good father good mother... a mother that dint even change diapers for their children... what the use of having 3 children?? since they dun even care about it?? it's becos they love to make love?? OR WHAT??! isn't they their own children?? or is they orphans?? or what he say its true she dint go into the real giving birth situation and she couldn't feel anything about their own children?? i really dunnoe....
ii just wanna aunt(gugu at yishun) back with me... my ah gong too.. da yi also... cause i know they will look after us and they will take care of us... at least dayi will scold that pigless brain mother to wake up...
but she is not here liaos... tmr is daughter GCE N Level yet she is qqing in this condition...
what can she do?? what can she do?? she feels darn dirrty and darn itchy now!!
why this kind of parents also got?? why god don't kill him first before taking those goodies back to hell/heaven?? making their children suffer... ah yi..ah gong...gugu...deardear... i wan eui guys now!! NOW!! i dun wan suffer until admit hospital wor... becos i dun wan... and i wan eui guys back.... i dun wan that kind of mum and dad... can i choose my own parents?? instead of having a no feeling parents with me... NO FEELINGS !!

ytd didnt post cost busyy?

becos today n lvl f&n and have some quarrels this few days bah...

was hving rashes now... and lazy to type...

heard that huiling is lesbian haha..

it's true?? or fake?? she post in her blog bahs...

dint have pic of wad i cook... monday den put the pic bahx...

sorrys can't stand the itchyness...

today was having remedial in school ... actually wanted to post in school derh...but dun wan larh paisey...

just gort home frm ntuc.. saw weizhi, baoyi, haojian(:

bought ingredient for tmr "trial" test...

cooking bread and butter pudding plus chocolate pancake(:

maybe trying it only larhhs... cos haszima dun wan try yus say no $$

was msning while i am in school... laykuan told me stuff too...

marissa say i am weird becos i betray shiyan and talk to her the next day??

actually is she ask for patch back one leh.... MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESSS....

she lost her wallet today... purely NON of my business...

laykuan say that meisin yulin shiyan and mer weird..

yulin say that shiyan peiling mer and laykuan weird...

dunnoe who to believe bahs.. jst tired upset of my life...

sat practical exam ler.. FOR N! monday oral FOR N!

(: my god.. after 3 days of hardwork.. STUDY STUDY STUDY!

ii finally know the word tired ler...

i really study study very hard...

woke up darn late today 7.00am..

received my darling sms at 4.34 he darn good lor..

today most booring lesson is english..

almost fall aslp but dint larh because ii promise alot of people to do well!

so must jiayou!! 

dearr me very very very tiredd leh...

but dun intend to slp becos ii wan chiong hard...

chiong ahh!!

chiong ahh!!

chiong ahh!!

today woke up for study...

as usual but today seems tired more than usual...

i tot that dar mummy yesterday was in singapore got a little shock from his ah yi...

because of my results bah.. feel that disappointing to what i make...

it's like darn embarrassed... for making her coming back bah...

MEIYAN jiayou.. dun be retarded... tired get sum rest and get back on to the desk to work on!

today having phy test... din't study yesterday because forgetten...

but then at least AT LEAST i know how to do some questions...

worst out of worst if u wann spilt us...

maybe i could jump down and let eui live forever in regret

for spilting us...

found out sumthing interesting le bah...
actually my kind of next time wedding is already plan ler...
but then only darh ah yi wans me study hard only...
dun wan me play afool...
ii wan cheng ur wish lor.. if possible ... but i try my BEST out of BEST...
ii frm morning study till 9+ the longest time i ever study for so long.. so i better study hardd!!
jiayouu!!

Today was the first day of school reopen known as [my hardwork days].
because of my "good" mid year exams... i hai le someone...that is my dear...
it's started becos mrs lim wasn't happy with my results... me too ):
it's really poor.. she wanted me to study hard.. and she also told dar mummy...
because they are sister...she also know that he also accompany me to Vietnam...
but if i really dun study hard.. it's all regrets...that time when he kena slap on his birthday..
she told him everything... now the main problem is that i study hard to maintain this relationship... no more playing and all those stuff... i restricted myself only to nights because i wanna get good results and not to fail any subjects if possible...
so got a new english teacher today... MUST STUDY HARD for my english, maths, science, f&n and even poa or whatever...
because of him i need to chiong ler... i dun care die anot...
got eat anot... just chiong ahh!!
later at night then write bah... now wan go chiong liaos....
tata...):

MY UNFORGETTABLE DAY!

today woke up quite late... aniway it's the last day of June Holidays...
good bye my dear.. now i wont be that free already...
because i am gonna to study revise study...
dear is gging on reservist for 3 weeks during august... 12-30
ahh! gonna be alone.. really sadd ah! dun like the feeling of being alone bahs...
cos nobody to talk to lor... just miss him loadds...
today went ah ma hse at 1+ haha bring mummy go chinatown first...
actually wanted to buy make up derh...
but don't know why dint buy! eat durian pancake alot of stufff...
fattening i know... bought a dress from pepper plus and a belt from don't know where..
just like the mickey mouse stuff on the belt...
that why i bought... come home at 9. and started packing my stuff....
finding my haversack... now wanna to pack my stuff for tmr!
tmr school reopen means... no time for stuff... no time to pei my dear...
tmr hope no grooming check haha! (:
i will work harderr derh!
believe in me! tmr got remedial also... let's see whose our new english teacher...
maybe someone new? maybe it's her? just hope the english teacher is good...
like godness... nopee shld be fierce like hell! so our class wud be scared of her like mrs toh or mrs lim... then our class finally got PEACE!
hate dancee... think we finally step down!

i'm here to post again...

today when tution with sk, zenice, uncle, myself

when yishun at around 8.30 that's early.

reached yishun at around 9.15...

uncle went out with jie, kor to sign something for the university stuff...

because they got earn $$ marh... then need them to sign

have my tution around 12+-2+

went out at 10+ to clinic for canace with zenice, alice, second aunty...

bring zenice to the clinic it's was darn funny...

she go touch people's butt... and then walk into the place whereby the medicine is located...

when into the clinic (doctor side) to sit on the chair...

makes me headdache!

when out after tution for swimming....

have maybe a bit of fun

zenice almost got drown !

went to have bubble tea with jie just now...

after bubble tea jie bluff alice want go see things... but in the end smoke..

Abia house com got problem so went to check 

when to my house....

have dinner outside...

suddenly lighter drop and it bomb lols! scary larh!

dun wan say lerh....

overall not bad!

So bored... now i know what the feeling of being alone...

Being left alone the feeling sucks!

I hate my family members... espically my mummy...

She totally bias! SUCKER!

Just dun wan be alone in the dark bah...

Always afraid of this feeling to come true...

But think tonight really come true le...

Although spent a happy day with you...

But at night this happened bah...

Not to sound angry/fierce...

I dun wish to quarrel bah...

I DON'T WANT BE ALONE TONIGHT! ):

Happy birthday!

After today can't slack ler...

Must study hard for my 'N' level...

As wad I promise my dear... I will pass N level. For him, Da yi, Ah gong, Mrs lim and a lot people that concerns me...

I will study hard for my maths, social study, science, english...

With hardworking... I hope i will be able to pass N level...

(: Today is dear birthday... Happy birthday (:

Hope you like what I give you ! 

Hope today is a happy day for you!

Lastly wish you forever happy & always so cute (:

See i so good use your favorite color (:

i am bored.. so i come and post again(: 

hope that this blog wont be die...

alright... i cook scotch egg just now..

ah ma say it's not salty...

mummy say average?

daddy didn't try

sk(brother) say only the egg nice...

i try not bad... i mean true? but it seems oily....

tomorrow dear birthday... must i cook mian xian with 2 eggs for him?

or purely boil 2 eggs? i don't know! 

My thoughts about today

A lot stuff happened indeed...

Tomorrow is your birthday yet i couldn't give you any happiness

Just remembering I really think that I am a idiot...

Just couldn't forget what really happens that very very day...

Although it had been for a few years the memories really happened and flash through my mind during the night times. 

Whenever I am sad I will always remember this telling me to be strong but today I couldn't I wish I could too because I want to give you happiness... 

All this while thanks for being beside me... 

I know I couldn't live without you but just hopes that if you could be happy when you are alone I rather let you have the happiness you had...

Lastly I just wish to say I love you... Happy birthday my dear...